TRUE SUCCESS

"I looked for you in the  darkness, I searched for you in the light, but all I had to do was look inwards, for you were somewhere deep inside"

Just when I was wondering as to why I have titled my blog as ‘LETS TALK SUCCESS’ even though I have not been able to achieve “success” in what I have been struggling for since years, that I met my long awaited “success”. Finally, I got a government job, which I have been longing for since years. Though I tasted the fruits of success, I was not sure that this was what would be my reaction after achieving it. I began to think over it. I was reminded of the days when I would literally give up everything in my life, no matter how dear it was to me, to see this day or this thing called “success” happening to me. But now, when it is actually happening to me, why is it that I’m not jumping out of joy or dancing in happiness or screaming out of madness? This is not to say that I didn’t enjoy my selection, I’m thankful to God that this happened to me. I consider myself to be really lucky. But something was missing I thought.

Retrospection actually forced me to think about the rigorous course of my preparation for this examination. Was I not then successful, when I woke up every morning with a desire to perform better than the previous day? Was I not successful when I got happiness from answering the questions of KBC sitting with my friends? Was I not then successful, when I would take a break from long hours of study and go out to eat momos? Was I not successful then when I would appreciate spending time with my loved ones? Is not staying put when everyone else has backed out a success? Is not dreaming big and then striving hard to achieve it a success? Yes, this is what success is. Success is not a destination. Deriving pleasure out of small little things is true success.

But in the midst of the desire to achieve something “big”, I feel somewhere I have missed out on the simpler pleasures that life has to offer. I have never built great relationships to avoid distractions, I have given up smaller dreams to run after that “bigger” one, I have disappointed my friends innumerable number of times for cancelling our get together plans, I have missed out many ceremonies back home to attend to the books. In short, I was too busy in postponing little happiness to savor it in the future once I get “successful” in life.

But now that I have become “successful”, I am actually regretting the wonderful times that I could have had. Life is short. Sometimes we get so busy in chasing the bigger pleasures of life that we lose sight of the smaller ones. If we are able to relish the moment without losing sight of our dreams, desires and ambitions that my dear friends is what I call true success. So go out, chase your dreams, build strong relationships, make your friends and family happy, tell them that you care for them, for this life is short and its days numerable.