Blessed are the hearts that can bend; they shall never be broken.
- Albert Camus
After a gruelling week of umpteen events, I am already on for a 48 hours journey back to delhi . "4,8" , these digits never seemed too horrifying to me before.But nevertheless, as they say - "This too shall pass!" Now , as I sit here and retrospect over the spate of events that took place over the last couple of days, I find myself deluged with whopping number of unanswerable questions and compulsive thoughts.
Ofcourse not to forget that the wedding was one of its kind that I have ever experienced in last "so many years" of my mortal existence and I had one of the best times of my life in Goa !But along with all the masti and fun, there were certain moments or should I say events, that I wish had not happened . Well , penning down all these events here would be a challenge to my cognitive potential, so I would rather spare my readers from another page of boredom.
What I wish to convey here is that the wedding was a learning experience,in toto(which I wish it was rather not).It was one of those events that have topsy turvied my life so much so that I have never been able to regain my original self.I find myself around a sea of questions - Is "ego", so valuable a possession, that one is ready to let go even more precious relations for its sake ? Or should I say -Is "anger" so powerful an emotion that all other emotions are dwarfed in front of it? I wish I had answers to these questions. I am feelinfg disillusioned and betrayed at the moment.But amongst all the disbeliefs that I hold at this moment,there is certainly a belief,a belief that detachment is the panacea for all the hurting wounds.Detachment is what I wish and seek at this moment .
Not wishing to stretch the post too long, I cut the story short and hold back the tide of emotions.I am happily detached and hopeless of mending any ties at this moment. As I say , "take care", I close this chapter and look for other ways of spendng the rest 28 hours !
P.S- I tried the "delete" button many times before publishing this post but somehow couldnot.Sorry for subjecting you all to excessive emotional atyachar ! :P
