Who I Am?

hi friends,
Well the reason as to why i have created a blog is not very clear to me.I might quit writting this blog within few days.Life of an I.A.S aspirant is not really interesting and anyother I.A.S aspirant would vouch for that.In this jouney i donot promise any exciting incidents nor any latest gossips nor any extra-ordinary vocab.I am just another girl with just too many dreams.My day begins with geograhy map work and ends with mugging up the leaders of the Indian Independence Movement.
In the following few lines i have tried to sum up my journey from who i was to who i am today.Hope that my friends like it-

Who i am,
relates to Who i was.
The journey began when,
14 year old i was.

A FAILURE of life,
A tragedy i was,
Miseries surrounded me,
An unwanted being i was.

Two years passed by,
New school and friends then i got.
Worked hard for my dream,
And lo! an achiever now i was.

Two years passed by,
Now a college girl i was,
"Happy go, lucky type"
"MISS FRESHER" now i was.

First year of college seem to be a boon,
Though not the topper,second rank holder i was,
Many crushes i had,
Luckily then,not so serious i was.

An year then passed,metamorphosis began,
For something i suppose,a little serious i was.
Sipped the vodka in december night,
Me and my friends started enjoying life.

TOPPER i became,studious as i was,
Politics did interest me,but not a cabinet member i was.
Second year of college,
finally ended with a blast.

Third year came,supersenior now i was,
Political economy did interest me,now a GOLD MEDALIST i was.
Concerned about my career,
A bit professional i was.

Brought about the 'T.V Revolution'
A leader i was.
Received a warm farwewell,
"MISS INTELLECTUAL" now i was.

Music began to play when a graduate i was,
Emotion took me away from what actually i was,
Happy though i was,
Little did i know,it will not long last.

Lost the battle of my dream,
A LOSER i was,
Happiness and glory abandoned me,
so shattered i was.

Who i was,
Leads to who i am,
Neither a 'lucky go happy type'
nor so emotional now i am.

Still looking for words ,
to describe who i am,
Searching for identity ,
A DREAMER now i am.

The fight gets tougher,
The struggle still continues,
I will get through ,
An OPTIMIST as i am!!

And the journey begins...

It was not until our new sci & tech teacher told us about 'The Blog' that the idea dawned on me of creating my own blog.But that time i was so engrossed in my recent favourite teacher's lecture and his captivating eyes(more of it will be dealt later),that the idea simply slipped off my mind by the end of the class.
Few days back i was talking to a very good friend of mine(whom i talk to on my frequent break- ups for lifting up my mood).She perhaps is among the very few who know me pretty well,so she suggested me to create my own blog.But that time i rejected the idea due to paucity of time.But the idea which she presented to me was still dominant in my unconcious without me being aware of it.It was today morning that the censors failed to work efficiently and the idea managed to cross the boundary of the unconscious ,reached the subconscious and then the conscious.And now here i m respecting the determination of the idea,writing a prelude to whats more to come.Thanks to Vanadana for the idea.